Now my friend Pirahnahead is encouraging me to write down my thoughts as twisted as they might be.
My thoughts upon going to bed and waking are always the same. My love affair with darkness. I suppose my sociaphobic hermetic ways are responsible for this development. I only feel completely at peace in the dark. The darkness does not judge. You don't have to be beautiful or thin or witty...it just accepts you as you are. At night no bill collectors call, nobody wants anything from you, nobody can hurt you. Even a prowler would need a light in order to hurt you. He could'nt see you in pitch black. ( ok barring infratech) At night all the minds shut down and you can breathe and be who you are. If you live underground like I do you can get the same effect during the day simply by banning the light. ( electricity). turn off the phone,unplug the doorbell. Light, both sun and electricity, is the most intrusive, invasive force in the universe. For me, peace can only be found in the darkness.
I guess I'm screwed when I die. If what people say is true about the bright light and going toward it. I'll veer left for a much needed respite. Going from a lifetime of judgment to an eternity of judgment in the light is just not my idea of a good time.
Darkness is tangible to me. It is peace and complete unconditional love. Light needs a source. Darkness is eternal. For those of you who would equate darkness with evil or satanism...go buy an IQ would ya ? LOL It's people like you I need to escape.
