something just hit a nerve the fact that if your on welfare your lazy it was so true many years ago but i was on it i would take a million random urine tests than relive my experience with the department of social services in New york where the average wage is $8.50 an hour to start you wonder why there are so many forclosures and 2 family households, rents in 2006 are the same as what my morgage was 10 yrs ago between 1200.-1600. a month you wonder why people have to work 2 jobs and most still live with their parents who can afford a house here average 390k so when i divorced lost my home and soon my once secure job i held for 24 years i became homeless,and unemployed oh yeah i can get a job at walmart well guess what not that easy and twice as hard when you limit your hours to days because you can't afford your car and that gets repo'd and can only work when the buses run and honey on long Island they don't run all night and every 15 min like the city they run 7 am to 7 pm 6 days a week hourly runs.try standing on the side of the road for 1 hour with a six degree wind chill one day.
well you think people sit on their asses and get welfare handed to them so wrong sit and watch how many people are in urgent need good people walk out of there in tears, are sent to welfare hotels that are so dangerous and dirty that drug dealers and prostitutes are right in the next room. and before you get a so called check it takes 3 to 6 months of running back and forth to that office asking for more paperwork and god forbid you lost a bank statement or paystub they will deny you and you start all over agiain meanwhile all that time you are reporting to welfare i could not look for a job food stamps thats a joke you could not feed a dog on what they give you so go to the pantrys yea if you can find one open near a bus route. welfare today is so demeaning and robs you of your soul
i spent almost a year and half on it and couldn't take it any more they sanction you for even trying to work or have any money to pay your rent on your own to put fruit or vegtables on the table instean of mac and cheese and tuna you eat 4 days week to stretch 90 dollars amonth and work fare to pay for your grant what a joke they still owe me the money i earned working and paying my own transportation that was the last straw i got fed up moved in with my mother who hates me and my child who verbaly abuses me and my daughter she my have demitia but she means every insult she slings i still have medicaid only because my daughter is a minor even that i hate receiving and i it took me friday 4 hours to travel to the medicaid office i went during a snow storm i got there too late the doors were closed.
I also came home because my brother works 2 jobs to support her couldn't take care of her anymore alone so im stuck watching a woman that hates me I'm looking for work to get me the hell out of here i look everywhere but i can only leave the house for alittle while and when my brother can give me bus fare.
look i feel bad enough don't make me feel any worse everything my daughter wears was given to her by the school thank-god in a way but i should be providing for her not school her teachers or the state. ME i feel worthless all the time everyday I pray to God to give me strength to not cry put a smile on my face and carry on if nothing is wrong and believe things will get better i will get a job I will be loved again I will be able to celebrate life again and my daughter dreams are fulfilled i will not become bitter and angry and dream every night of a better tomorrow I try not to cry anymore it doesn't solve what is now. I fight everyday for my happiness and find my joy in my childs eyes
