mamabigdraws's blog: "I Havent Found a Title For this Yet!"

I'm sitting here at my computer screen with thoughts that are still unclear,
The Thoughts pass through my mind and deep inside i feel the fear.
My Mind is acheing and my tears run dry,
I don't know why but it sems i forgot how to cry.

Maybe Ive become numb from the Past,
Knowing that good things never last.
I dont know why but i can't seem to let my heart feel ,
Anything that may be real.


I dont let any one in
Nor do i let anything out,
This is the way it has to be
cause for some reason im filled with doubt.

I see a pattern of times before,
a different man, but yet the same door.
walking in out i see them leave,
So im left with nothing but this broken piece of life,
So how am I suppossed to know whats right.

They say you can't love until you love yourself,
But how can this be true,
Cause I look around and find something else.
I find that love in you.

But because I'am blind and refuse to see,
It's not that i dont want to.
But its because the pain is blinding me.

I geuss this is just a part of my life i must learn to live,
I must get past,
I must at one point try to give.
If i ever want a love that will last.