John's blog: "poems"

TO WHOMEVER MAY READ THIS,
I WAS BORN WITH AN ABNORMAL HEART, ITS WAY TOO BIG,
IT KEEPS TO MANY THINGS INSIDE, AND HAS TROUBLE SAYING
HOW IT FEELS. DUE TO RECENT DEVELOPMENTS IN MY LIFE
THIS CONDITION HAS WORSTENED, FOR FEAR THAT I MAY LOSE 
IT FOREVER, I LEAVE THIS, ITS LIVING WILL, AS TESTOMONY 
TO THE IDEALS IT STOOD FOR THROUGH THE THIRTY YEARS IVE
KNOWN IT. I THINK THIS WOULD HAVE MADE IT HAPPY.

1) I WILL LOVE YOU AND CONTINUE TO DO SO UNTIL I DRAW MY 
LAST BREATH

2) I WILL PROTECT YOU FROM HARM AT THE COST OF MY OWN LIFE

3) I WILL LOVE YOU AS MY EQUAL AND PARTNER, I WAS RAISED
UPON THE NOTION OF ITS ME AND YOU VERSUS THE WORLD, I 
HOLD THIS ESPESIALLY CLOSE.

4) I WILL NEVER CHEAT ON OR BETRAY YOU AS HURTING YOU COULD
ONLY HURT ME AND I NEED TO LOVE ME TOO, I DONT DO THAT
ENOUGH.

5) I WILL SUPPORT YOU IN ALL YOU DO WITHIN REASON. I AM
A DREAMER, REASON IS A VERY BROAD TERM FOR ME.

6) I WILL TREAT YOU WITH RESPECT, EVERYONE SHOULD, BUT KNOW 
I EXPECT IT BACK IN RETURN.

7) I WILL BRING THE FULL FORCE OF MY WRATH UPON ANY WHOM SHALL
 HURT YOU, YOU ARE A PART OF ME, AN AFFRONT TO YOU IS ONE
TO ME, I WILL RESPOND ACCORDINGLY

8) I WILL WORK HARD TO TAKE CARE OF YOU AND WHAT IS OURS.
THE WORLD HAS CHANGED, I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO DO THIS ON MY OWN,
IF I NEED YOUR HELP I MAY NOT ASK FOR IT, I LEAVE THIS TO YOU.

9)I WILL NOT PRETEND IM PERFECT, NOR WILL I PRETEND YOU ARE
THOUGH I LIKE TO THINK YOU ARE BECAUSE IT MAKES ME HAPPY.
HUMANS ARE WHAT THEY ARE, WE MAKE MISTAKES I UNDERSTAND THAT.

10) I WILL BE HONEST WITH YOU. LYING IS THE BASE ALL BAD 
THINGS REST ON, SPEAK OPENLY AND TRUTHFULLY, IM A MAN, I
WILL LISTEN,I MAY NOT AGREE WITH ALL YOU SAY AND DO, IF
I WANTED A CLONE I WOULD HAVE DONE BETTER IN SCIENCE.
OUR DIFFERENCES MAKE US UNIQUE, THERE ARE BILLIONS OF 
STARS IN THE SKY I ONLY WANT ONE.

11) LASTLY, I WILL HOLD TRUE TO ALL THESE IDEALS FOR AS
LONG AS I LIVE. WHICH HOPEFULLY WILL END IN YOUR ARMS AS
WE SLEEP BESIDE PICTURES OF ALL THOSE WE LOVED IN THIS LIFE

THESE ARE THE WORDS MY HEART WISHED TO EXPRESS IN THE EVENT
THAT  IT BECOMES LOST OR UNABLE TO SAY AS RESULT OF ITS 
WEAKENED CONDITION. IT HOPES YOU UNDERSTAND THAT IT HAS
MUCH MORE IT WISHES TO CONVEY BUT THINKS THIS EENOUGH
FOR YOU TO COME TO KNOW IT. IN MEMORY OF MY HEART AS
RECORDED BY ME, JOHN KOCHANSKI. 11/24/08