Bleed
A little whimper of truth
here in sings each night
as I close my eyes.
A single thought of pride.
I sink deeper into my blanket of truth
and pretend this is just another time.
The veins that run with blood will not stop
if I were to hit rewind and try to fix myself
of the voices I hide.
Each day the light sinks in
and brings me back
to the same old
as I rise and sink
my feet to the coolness
of the floor I tread in a haze
doing everything the same
till night closes in
and bleeds me dry once again.
A sad smile on my face
close my eyes and sleep
hoping that tomorrow
I will not bleed anymore
the pain will fade
and I will be whole
for once in this life.
Lies as honey scatter in my mind
from childhood too now
a woman in full bloom.
I watch the refection
and try to remember
the eyes staring back at me.
They are so sad and vacant
of anything but sadness.
Slip away from this misery
that was handed to me
before I was even a speck
in my mothers eyes.
Still I bleed
and no running can change
I am just a shade of a shadow
that everyone passes by
and inside I cry.
I fight the battle alone
and I bleed for the comfort
of something I can never have.
close my eyes--
I just hit the rewind.
