Hello everyone.How is everyone doing this week? Im good.Monday i was cleaning out the car port and i cut my leg open on some glass that was sticking up out of a box.well by wensday it was infected so I had to go to the doc and get a tetnus shot and im on these pills for a week BUT Im almost done cleaning out the car port.My next project is to re paint outside.Yeah I know boreing shit lol
Well mothers day is comeing up fast.I had a great mothers day last year and im sure this year will be just as great.Im so lucky that i get to be a mom.When i was 13 i had docs starte telling me i couldnt have kids cuz of problems i had with my overies.It wasnt easy to have dylan.It took me 8 months to get pregeant and sadly i lost that baby.But one month later I found out i was preggo again.and it was hard.there was a few times it looked like he wouldnt make it.Then haveing him almost killed me.But I would do every sec of it all over again in a heartbeat.ill i have ever wanted is to be a mom.Its not a easy job but a great one.You never know what love is,TRUE real love till you have a child.You find yourself doing and saying things you never would have thought you would have ever in your life.Ask me about any kids movie.i can tell you about it cuz odds are ive seen it 100 times :).Ask me about shows on the Nic Channel or the Disney Channel.Ive seen them all.
Everyday i learn many knew things.I think to be a parent ou must always be ready and willing to continuly learn knew ways to be a good parent.Your screwed and fooling yourself if you think you dont need to learn as your child grows and changes themselves.Josh is like this.He thinks hes the best hands down and no one needs to tell him anything.Maybe thats why hes not seen or talked to or even asked about his son in a month.
Its sad when parents try to use there child to hurt someone.Josh used Dylan to hurt me by telling me i was never going to see him again.The thought of that fear hurts so deep and always makes me want to cry.The pain it caused will leave a lasting mark for the rest of my life.I have never once told Josh he couldnt see Dylan unless we were haveing a family get togather that Dylan needed to be there for and he always got him right after it was over.I was more then far with how much time he had dylan because I think its very important dylan get that time with his dad.His dad is supposed to teach him things that a mom just cant.And Ill say this for the first time on here-I have always felt a lil guilty for takeing Dylan out of Joshs day to day life.I dont know why and i know i shouldnt but i have.Not now.Josh mistook my kindness for weekness.He thought he could push and hurt me and id just take it.No mother in there right mind would have just sat and let him keep there child.So now if he ever sees Dylan again it can only be for 3 days at a time instead of unlimited time like before.One ression I left Josh was Dylan.I didnt want him watching me cry all day anymore.I didnt want him to watcha nd hear Josh throwing yelling and breaking things.And i was sick of being the only one doing anything for Dylan. Josh never helped at all with him.I can name the date and place of when Dylan hit every big milestone.Josh cant name one and you know why?Cause he wasnt there for it I was.
Now tho I am very lucky to have Dave.Me and Dylan both are.Dylan loves Dave so much and Dave loves him.Dave takes way better care of him then Josh ever did.When your single and looking for someone you have to find someone good enough for you.Well when your a mom you have to find someone good enough for your child and that is hard to do.Right of the bat theres about 40% of men that are knocked of the list.Then theres about 30% that tkae themselves off the list cause they dont want a girl with a kid.So that leaves another 30% of guys who say they love kids they dont care,they have dated girls with kids before blah blah blah.20% of the 30 leave when they think they will have to play Daddy.Then theres the 10% left that are real good men like Dave.maybe my numbers are wrong on this but its how it went for me.I had guys ask me out then tell me never mind when id say something about dylan.Dave has always known right from the get go that I am not looking for a daddy for dylan.he has one,a shitty one but he has one.Dave has steped into being a step dad very well and i couldnt ask for anyone better.
I hope everyones Mothers Day is full of love and happiness.
