i sit here alone waiting for hope that one day i'll finally be able to stand up and say no to the one thing in this world that has always had a hold over me.
no matter what i do it seems that i will always give in to my heart it has a cotroll over me that i just dont understand i've been hurt so many times by this pain that i live with every day for the past 4 years but how happy i become when she comes back even just to be friends i know ill get hurt every time but i am in love with this person so much i guess im willing to put up with the pain but at least i can feel something in this lonely heart.
im 40 and getting older my life is not what i wanted but i deal with it hopeing one day the one thing in my life i need will finally come true and
that one thing is true love as i go thruogh this life i come to realize that some people will never find that love and im starting to think i am one of those people. i love this person more then my own life how ez i could give it up just to be with her again ive hurt others because of her but in my own meesed up way of thinking if she comes back its all worth it but i no ill get hurt till the day i die which seems to be a good idea lately at least i wpuld not have to deal with the lost and lonely feeling i have in my heart........
ty to all my friends steven