DarkOne's blog: "My Thoughts"

Pain and Reality:

How do you differ the pain of reality from the pain of the mind, I wish I could. Sometimes the pain of the mind overwrites any pain inflicted upon the body. Sometimes it just feels better to self inflict the pain so the mind can rest, so that there is a moment of distraction, a moment of clarity. But then the moment is gone, and it returns. The questions the thoughts, the need to self inflict pain rises again, filling every thought, every notion of common sense is overwritten by a single thought “you need to die” so again pain must be inflicted, be it emotional or physical their must be another moment of clarity, a semblance of peace, a moment of lucidity. So where is the voice of reason? The voice that says you are not to do this, you are not suppose to feel this way, you are not supposed to live with constant pain? What would the rest of the world do? What would you do for a moment of clarity? A moment where you can feel yourself? Without thoughts of pain, death or self loathing? Would you inflict pain on yourself? Or would you try to fight the never ending battle, the losing battle, for no matter how many friends you may have, or how many family members love you. The reality is “you dont belong here”. So inflict the pain and for a moment just one sweet moment. “your safe”