WELL I GUESS THIS IS AS GOOD A PLACE AS ANY TO TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHY MY INSTINCTS THAT ARE THEIR TO PROTECT ME JUST SEEM TO GET ME HURT--EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE RIGHT EVERY TIME? I DONT THINK I CAN MEND MY BROKEN HEART THIS TIME--OR MY TRUST IN PEOPLE--ITS JUST ONE TOO MANY TIMES NOW. AND THE THING THAT SUCKS IS HE GAVE UP ON ME WAY TO EASY--BLAMED IT ON ALL KINDS OF THINGS--BUT IN THE END I JUST DONT THINK HE LOVED ME. IT WAS TOO EASY FOR HIM TO LEAVE--TO BELEIVE I WOULD DO SOMETHING UNDERHANDED LIKE SET A TRAP FOR HIM--AND THEN HE FELL HEAD LONG INTO THE TRAP THE OTHER ONE ACTUALLY SET. AND I CAME OUT THE LOOSER--OF COURSE HER GIG WAS UP--HE BUSTED HER ON IT--BUT THE DOUBTS WERE THERE AND NOW HE IS GONE--AND HE WENT WAY TOO EASY--SO HOW DO I MEND IT THIS TIME--MY HEART MY TRUST--MY SOUL--ITS ALL GONE NOW AND SO IS HE--OFF TO GREENER PASTURES I GUESS--AND IM LEFT ALONE AND HURTING AND DEVEASTATED--WILL I EVER COME BACK FROM THIS--NO DONT THINK SO--BUT I HAD TO DO SOMETHING TO EASE THE HURT FOR NOW AND TIS SEEMED AS GOOD A PLACE TO START--OH AND ALL THE NASTY MESSAGES I LEFT HER HELPED SOME THANKSFOR LISTENING AND THANKS JULIE FOR THAT COMENT