Don’t you hate when you are faced with something that you don’t want to know, don’t want to think about, don’t want to dwell upon yet you have to? Those things in life that you are told in order to make things better in the long run but seem to inhibit them more in the here and now?! There are certain things that you just don’t want to know in life, that you don’t want to face, and that you would rather take a bullet than think about . . . And somehow these are the things that you find yourself faced with most often.
I was faced with something today that lord knows I did not want to hear, yes I needed to and I realize that but I would have rather heard so many other things. I had someone that I have grown very fond of tell me something that could have changed the entire view I have of this person, the total way I think of them, whether or not I wanted to even deal with them anymore. I didn’t want to be faced with this, not today, not tomorrow, not ever . . . But I respect this person for telling me. It is something that I need to know, just not what I want to know.
This person called me and told me something that they never had to tell me, something they could have kept hidden from me, but chose not to. I have nothing but respect for someone who will admit that they have done (or not done) something so major that it affects their entire life to someone that doesn’t need to know about it. This person confessed something to me that should have changed everything that I think of them, but they still told me. So, I took an entire day to think about whether or not I want things to proceed the way they are proceeding . . . I had a great deal to think about, and I finally made up my mind.
I believe this person; I am choosing to believe what they tell me. I am choosing to go forward with the plans we have made. I have chosen to give this person the benefit of the doubt and not see them any differently than I ever had. I see something in this person that compels me to get to know them more, to spend more time with them. There is something there that I want to know, want to trust, want to believe . . . And it will never happen if I don’t open myself up . . . So may as well do it now, right. Yes, I am right and no one tell me differently please, if I get hurt I get hurt and I will heal . . .
