My dear husband is incarcerated for reasons I do not wish to list. To get him out of that hellhole, I'll have to collect 2,500, which is completely out of my reach.
I feel like a hole has been punched through my chest and anything that reminds me of him just increases that gap and slowly, it's killing me.
I have been by his side through every last ordeal and I am not abandoning him now - but with the difficulties of maintaining an inmate/significant other relationship - I officially dubbed us separated.
On our one year back together. I can't see him. I can't hold him. I can't even tell him I love him.
His bondsman called me, relaying messages between us two... and I told him "Please... please tell him I love him with all my heart." through broken words and choking back tears.
I told him if he was to be put in jail again, I would leave him. I am powerless. I can't help him. I don't know what to do. I am burning in the fires of regret for not putting my foot down.
I could've saved him. But, I didn't. And look where we are now.
My heart just absolutely aches. Halloween, my favorite holiday of the year, joyous because it is when my love and I officially reunited in our love together.... and he's gone.
I will do my best to trudge on... feel him through the clammy class... and tell him I love him.
I'm so sorry I didn't do anything more.
I'm so sorry.
Baby, you are my entire world... and it is hell without hearing your voice. How I yearn to hear "I love you, baby." spouted from your sweet lips. Though we are not together, I LOVE YOU with everything I am and everything I have. I will do everything in my power to help you... even if it is writing you a letter. I miss you so much. I love you with all my heart.
"I Loved You Then, I Love You Still. I Always Have, And I ALWAYS WILL."
Forever And Always,
Your Wife,
Kiera Rose