nightmares are all around me, they haunt my inner soul, no matter where i seem to run, the nightmares, they will show.
i cant escape the totrure, i cant escape the fear, these nightmares that i have inside, will soon take me from here.
i cant outrun the sorrow, i cant escape the guilt these nightmares that i speak of, take from me what i felt.
so when this life is over, and i have gone away, these nightmares will not follow, no longer will they portray
so say good bye to family, and say goodbye to friends, these nightmares just wont go away, but i know how they end.
dont take it to your person, dont hold me in your heart, we knew the fucking outcome, right from the very start.
i tried, i tried my hardest, i did the best i could, these fucking nightmares haunt me, the drugs they did no good.
i tried to hide, i ran away, from friends and foe alike , they always seem to find me, my demons they provoke
i will not let them haunt me, they will not fucking win, ill take my life and end it all, ha ha fuck you I WIN
so please dont feel bad for me, for i have tried my best, ill give in to the saddness, and take my final rest.
again the pain it haunts me still, from which there's no escape, i place the gun against my head,bang,my brain it rapes
what other way to deal with things, a question i cant solve, ive run away, i tried to hide, there is no fucking resolve.
ill make them fucking listen, i have the power to be, not life,but death, i have the choice, or is there none for me.
to scared to open windows, for fear of what crawls in. ill beat you fucking nightmares, i will not let you win.
j.p. 2011