hi people Addict Name Carlton 66 days old
u talk about a glorious time the higher power have been showing me. only i can reap them benefits, but i can however share the experience, hope, and joy. thru what i write and illustrate in my daily routine, i know i am able 2 influnce someone 2 take a look at themselves and change. they might question why he look so different from what i remember? plan and simple, the spirit is stronger and the bond is growing. My faith is no longer experiencing technicial difficulties. My will is no longer mine 2 fuck with or fuck up. I am not a test, but the results of being tried and tested many times and only seeing the same results is no longer in questioned, cuz evidence is the answer, i am good not just passing. if i expect better then what am i doin 2 make it different? well my insane thinking or obession has been slowly been curbed and the hunger i use 2 not monitor is not optional behavioral 2 use. i am growing up and expanding my once stalled knowledge of life. i knew a lot of things that stopped my growth and then posion hurt my time demanically. where could i go, work, or who could i b with drinking and drugging unmanageblly? Nowhere with, somewhere employable, or living comfortable not willing 2 change.
i had 2 have a group conscience about my low self esteem and the diease took advantage and damn near ran my mother fuckin mind out my head. then i realize the group was the most powerful tool in my recovery. i am learning no matter how much people talk with all the wrong information about me, don't let them fuck with my day. the hell with the issues of depression they selling. so what they have my face on their front cover, just as long as i don't purchase the issue, FUCK THEM!!!! See the problem was people want 2 invade my circle, but i don't require the methods 2 unlock doors that lead me back 2 where i started no Fuckin where. i refuse 2 b in a chain sexual affair, just cause u think i need 2 b in ur circle of mayhem. Hell i am the Piece of the dream, u can only have when u go 2 sleep. Hell if u going 2 b woke and lure me 2 sleep in ur bed of chaos. Well if i wasn't the person they crave why the fuck would they get so jealous 2 not only assume, but try 2 assassinate my character by communicating destructively about what they had 99.9% of the wrong information. No, I am not sleeping with whom they say i'm sleep with. hell i don't even desire 2 sleep with whom i have at home. Hell,u only c me one hour out of certain days, how can u know me comings and goings. they the one with the recovery curfews, not me. So what give them the right 2 assume i am fuckin with anyone with no evidence. did u bust me between the sheets. just cuz i talk and hang out with someone don't mean sex is in session. Oh is it because i chose 2 chill with pretty women. Hell i hang with not so attractive ones 2, but because who they are, i totally refuse 2 chill, hang, look, or even speak 2 ugly people, no matter how pretty they look, but the make up which is the mask or attitude crushes them like grapes in my eyes. i would rather fuck a dog then 2 fuck with them. I don't like roaches so u know i despise RATS!!! All I ask if u don't know something don't assume, predict, or talk about shit concerning me with positive, cross referenced, or pictures 4 that matter, 2 back up u backward termonology gossip. Hell u can judge, but look at all them fingers pointing right back at u when u point. it should tell urself I am not ur problem, unless because i don't fuck with u then that is the problem.
I am not a hard person 2 get a long with. but i am definitely a hard person 2 get with. i can play some head games b/4 i even get head in the game. Hell if I talk 2 fast read slower, so u don't manipulate the presenter's words and get mixed up like a bowl of fruit. Hell b/4 any particular set of women figure me out they might match all the colors on a rubic cube 1st, cuz i am that difficult. i am not suppose 2 b easy. it is 2 easy 2 catch shit and 2 hard 2 get rid of it. Some of them things other then law enforcement agencies, such as FBI, DEA, CIA, ATF is HIV. How many of us know who the hell we sleep with, fuck remembering? How many of u know who the hell they slept with. Go deep think about do they know who they slept with or CARED? If u don't and u don't, it is safe 2 not assume, u should think about shit u do before u ignore ignorance. Life don't have 2 b a death sentence.
