blazintommyd's blog: "LOVE and LUST"

In the midst of my 56th year I have accepted my sexual reality and feel comfortably accomplished about it. These are the two material elements:

(1) If women are absolutely free then no man on earth could keep up with any woman sexually. If you're a man and think you can, knock yourself out

(2) There is no conceivable way I could ever have the ultimate woman/women of my dreams and expect that I could ever be enough for her sexually, so she could have any other men or women she would like or need

But there are problems:

(1) Most women won't go for this because they're far more interested in money than sex and since I have no money of my own then it would take an extraordinary woman to (a) be able to have any man she could get but (b) still want me. Consequently, most women will walk away from the appreciation and exploitation of my sexual reality thinking there's someone on the other side of the hill, with money; and maybe it's even someone like me.

The problem there IMHO is that women mistake money for security whereas I would think of security as - well I can go about and dally with any men I want and if they abuse, mistreat and reject me I will always have tommy to go back to. To walk away from that seems really strange - it's like women have so long emulated the male roles of Heterosexual Patriarchy that they've developed a mutation - for lack of a better word - of female Machismo - e.g., O dear I could never do anything like that with a "real man" only with a fag - viz., the fag hag fad.

(2) Women are spoiled by hungry Heterosexual men and have developed this idea of - it's ok for women to be players as long as they're single but once a man becomes interested they expect him to assume unconditional premarital monogamy or as a variant - I don't get 'involved' with married men. I think this can be defeated in most cases if men would just accept what I have accepted and learn to appreciate a woman that will give you pleasure regardless of whomsoever else she does the same things with or to. In fact her ability to do that makes her sexuality with you better.

And if in turn she can accept the fact that you might meet another like her and just do a sperm of the moment thing either in the flesh or online then what more could you want really

One of the scenarios I rather enjoy thinking about is a wonderful woman who is everything I could ever want physically and I enjoy being with her, too but she genuinely needs male attention from others. Now there is some theory or science that purports that when men compete for the same woman their cock grows !! their cocks get harder, fully engorged with blood and ready to explode, throbbing, you can visually see their pulse pumping and driving their wonderfully curved plum headed cock up and down with a dramatic stream of pre cum oozing and drooling down the shafts. Why you could practically heat a room with that wonderful thing. And the head look so nice to suck on and feel against your lips and tongue. Well imagine you as a sexually high woman, totally naked and surrounded by several of those - as many as you want really - and all of them getting larger and more engorged and drooling wanting you. Each one ready, surely there's enough so that each of them could cum and before the last one did you'd get your nut too. Trembling, out of your mind with lust, love or whatever the fuck it is and cumming sooo gotdam good

Now to me? That turns me on. It makes me feel free. I would Love to see a Goddess I Love and Adore enjoying herself in that way or even imagining it. I would savor every moment of her nakedness and watching her fuck IF she could handle it. Enjoy it and feel fucking awesome about it later

The trouble is most women can get into that kind of fantasy, but could never do it whether they wanted to or not primarily because of sexual repression (1) Their husband or boy friend would beat them up (2) society would brandish them as a filthy whore or (3) tommy wtf is the matter with you why aren't you competing for my pussy !!

[I'm excepted from the competition but you still want me anyway].

(3) Many women knuckle under and accept Heterosexual Patriarchy - it's like trying to out trick the Devil - and as an immediate consequence, human evolution stalls - e.g., doctors don't know how to treat sexual diseases and they persist because we have to choose unsavory characters to have sex with because Conservatives won't allow us and society to know and understand how to properly take care of ourselves to avoid and breed sexual disease, both mental and physical, out of existence.

So unless i meet someone really extraordinary, i keep it online. Let's play :)