i got to talk to rochelle tonight which made me happy we haven't gotten to talk in like two months because of my working so much and now she's working. she's sick again though which is sad so i hope she gets better soon. funny how you don't really realize how much you miss someone until they're there again. well, sometimes anyways. especially with friends, because i don't consciously think about the fact that i miss them as much.
i didn't get to talk to rochelle for very long, but it was still nice to know she's doing ok other then being sick ne ways :/ ive spent today listening to audio books and music which is always fun. attempting to get myself to be creative. im sort of figuring since reality isn't going to make me feel alive anytime soon why live in it? might as well live in my own little world like i used to. was so much better when i was able to do that.
with any luck ill get a spurt of creativity and get a lot of writing done on my books. im sure they need a lot of editing, but it would be nice to atleast get them written. often times i think of productive things i should do but when i try to do them nothing comes out. its like i cant be creative if i want to be. things often seem to happen at bad times and such. creative when you can't really put it to use, and not creative when im sitting around with hours to kill. life isn't very nice most of the time i guess. im half debating just not sleeping tonight so i can get through this audio book even tho ive already read the story. itd be nice to feel like i actually did something for once, and perhaps spark some creativity in me or something.
