I was young- 21, just married, and so ready to have a family. We were thrilled when we found out we were going to have a baby. Five months into the pregnancy in the middle of an ultrasound (the week before mother's day), we learned that there was no heartbeat, and that I was carrying not one child, but two, conjoined, sharing all of their vital organs. I had to carry the babies for 4 days until I was scheduled for an induction. Looking pregnant, and feeling so lost, I drifted through that weekend in a fog. I received a mother's day card in the mail. I delivered the babies through natural childbirth. They were so undeveloped the sex could not be determined. I did hold them. They were so tiny, and not at all human looking. All I can say is that it was horrific, and the depression which stemmed from it eventually tore my marraige apart. I have moved on now, happily married, two beautiful children, but the pain will always be there, along with the burning question- why? Why me? What did I do wrong? How? No answers, just pain. God only gives you what you can handle- some of us are stronger than others. Thank you for reading.
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Miss. Jenn
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