There is a raging battle that is going on inside my head.
A battle that is keeping me torn and wounded and defenseless.
A battle keeping me confused and full of hurt and betrayal.
I feel like my head is going to shatter into a million separate pieces.
Two different sides, but only one side can win, which one will it be?
One part of me says, Let you go. He is definitely not worth it!
Does he deserve your affection? Your love? Not in a million years!
So why are you wasting so many tears on a guy whose a jerk?
Do you recall the times he made you feel so low, without a purpose in life?
Counterpart of me says, Do you remember the memories of
When he would make you laugh for hours, a dozen times a day?
Or the sweet kisses he would give you when you were feeling down?
Even after all the times he has lied to me while keeping a fake smile,
I still cannot get over him or the fact of how he still makes me feel.
Just looking into his beautiful blue eyes, mischievous and bright,
Would make my heart skip a beat every time he looked my way.
The way he smiles and laughs and the way his eyes would light up,
It just so dazzling and angelic, my heart would throb and pound.
So now here I am on the battlefield, feeling lost and abandoned.
Torn between what I desperately want and what is right for my heart.
I know I should not be with you, and yet, there is still something...
Something about you that is irreplaceable, impossible to find again.
So what is it going to be from now on? Stay with you or not?
Which side of my soul is going to win this wearisome battle of mine?
**With each moment that passes by, forgotten, and relinquished.
I am reaching forward, and giving the everlasting promise of hope.
