I have found thru the years that it is most difficult to hang on to the things that matter the most. Romance is so very simple and yet its grasp seems to escape me completely. I meet someone who seems to be so special yet I find myself being placed so far down on priority lists that it sometimes makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me. Maybe it is the way I come across.... maybe I am too "needy". I dont know. The thing of it is, I truly believe that there is someone out there that is for me and he will love me for me. He will want to be with me and will make the effort to spend time with me. I get the fact that people have their own lives and I truly dont want them to change their lives but in truth make me apart of it. Is that too much to ask from a relationship? It simply must be.
I am in the position to be with this someone new. I see the patterns I hate already showing and it hurts me. I dont know why. I havent invested enough of myself into this relationship that I should care, but the reality is... if he isnt in the wanting to be with me business then I dont want him either.
I guess I will just continue to look forward and sit in my little waiting chair.
