I walk down this lonely road where it will lead me. Wondering when and if I will ever be able to leave long lonely road. each time I stray it has just brang me pain and disappointment. Not only for me but from my broken family to. this time of year is not the happy time it's supposed to be for me. So I wear my happy mask for all to see. Inside I hold my broken heart together. Will I ever fill this hole in my life? I may never know. Till then i will trudge along taking it one day and one step at a time.