tuff — Monday, October 16, 2006
Mail
I like the new mail system. I like the different catagory thing. That way I don't have to sift through all the blogs to find the messages to me. And when I want to read blogs, I can go to the blogs and find some to read.I guess I kinda did that before with the search thing, but now it's easier or whatever. People almost always fear and resist change though. Even at ft. bragg, the leaders resisted the change to the new uniforms. They fought it as long and hard as they could. While setting a bad example for everyone else. When the leaders at ft. bragg change stuff, they have this idea that the other people should support them and the changes they are making. However, they didn't do that when they were told to change. " Do as I say, not as I do. " That was going to be a new modow for us when we got to kuwait, since that's how our piece of shit first sgt was. Seems like someone should have done something to staighten those issues out since how we were going to be in iraq soon. Well, I guess people did try. All 3 of the pltn sgts whent to the sgtmajor and told him how fucked up the 1sgt was. Eventually they got rid of our 3 awesome pltn sgts.... No checks and balances is a bad thing in a signal unit.
What else? do you want to hear about? suggestions will be considered.
food
I had a few muffins, and ramen noodles, and artichoke hearts yesterday. That's all I ate yesterday. Today I had more muffins, and some penut butter and jelly sandwitches. I have a turkey cooking in a crockpot though, and I guess I'm going out to eat with my mom at 5 before we go to my brother's girlfriend's recital.
Girls
I don't care much anymore. I'm over it. Not really much motivation to find another one. It was slowly declineing, and I'm sure still is. I can mostly stay distracted enough with school, and the internet. Each day gets better. ( or worse, depending on how you look at it. ) I go to school, and talk to people on the internet, and write stuff. That's my lack there of life. People are much more pleasant for me to talk to when it's not in person. Far less awkward silences, and they are hardly ever scared of me. It's weird how people over the internet aren't but people who meet me are. Ohwell, that's life.
Sleep
It's hard for me to sleep. There's always too much on my mind. I had lots of nightmares and odd dreams lastnight. I had dreams I woke up too. I read a chapter in my psyche book yesterday about dreams. Kind of an odd coinceadence. Except I often have nightmares anyway.
School
Basicly I spend too much time on the internet. I need to spend more time working on school stuff. I spend most of my life in a seemingly paradoxical state. I'm lonly, but I don't like being around people much. I'm just not uste to it or something. I'm more comfortable being lonly, and sad kinda. So it's almost like a fear of happiness. I'm uste to a state of mild depression. So happiness in uncomfortable, and usually severe happiness is very uncomforatble because it's always followed eventually by severe depression. And that's no fun. So I the range from mild depression to kind of a state of apathy is my comfort zone. Sitting around on the internet away from actually being in a close proximity to people is what keeps that steady. Interaction through a computer screen, is safe and easy and keeps me distracted from my other problems. I get to talk to lots of people without actually being around them. The wonder of social networking sites. I get to study the things I don't feel comfortable being around without actually being around them, and without them getting creeped out cuz I'm staring at them. lol. How does all this relate to shcool? Basicly I spend too much time on the internet and not enough time in school. Or something like that. And I have to be around people when I'm at school. The son is monster!! lol. Yah, it's from benchwarmers.
Social networking sites...
Uh, They are evil and addicting. Ya know that tee-shirt that says myspace ruined my life? Well we are all responsible for our own actions.
