I sit and look and think and stare at words that cause me such despair
I wonder why they get to me am I reading more than I see?
I try to think and my heart sinks, I feel a sickness deep within
It wont come out I want to shout I want to bellow to the world
I wish these thoughts would go away and leave me without dismay
I search my mind I search my soul I feel nothing but a hole
This hole is dark it tears at my heart I feel like it’s torn apart
Is there any sense? Is there any reason? Why do I have this hole within?
Is it me? Is it my mind, are my thoughts betraying my feelings?
The feeling is immense the emotion so intense like a fire burning my soul
Tearing me apart from the inside fighting to reach the outside
I see a face, a face I love, but these feelings are burning inside,
I cant survive against my thoughts they torture my soul and ever widening is the hole
The pressure in my soul boils to the brim and I cant contain it within
My emotions erupt in a burst so abrupt I feel like my heart is no more
My mind goes wild, from a being so mild a growling sound escapes
The anger spills forth like a volcano, with no barriers, no brakes just the emotion it takes
I want to bark and to howl, to savage and show no mercy
The feelings relent, the emotion is spent, leaving nothing but deep remorse