Icarus's blog: "Augurs, Martyrs, and Agnostics"

Title has nothing to do with content.
Go figure.

wait

wait...
*puts on the good parts of "Sticky Fingers"... which is most of it*

This week I stopped singing.
I sing in profound sadness.

I think that was the first sign.
The next was a long
torturous reconciliation dream...

Faced a lot of things I didn't want. Woke up without wanting.
And it was strange.

I could probably turn this into abstract prose, but I'm too...
cathartasized after the facts, and the 3 pieces last night.

I don't know what I'm feeling.
I don't know what I want.

Go back to school a couple years I guess...
Do that human
thing.

I've been invited to a hippy-commune.
Honestly
probably wouldn't be so bad.

I would need a part time job, a little electricity, a little internet
but...
I'd have better ingredients than I have now
and probably more space.

It's fun to think about, but not very seriously.
I think I'd be that grouch on the edge, in an underground house with doors and locks.
And I know I'm the only person with the wherewithall to get it together, or to think ahead.

Hippy-friend-neighbours in the middle of nowhere are WAY better than assholes on top of you.

If I had a magic wand
a million dollars
the right job
the right girl

I wonder what I'd worry about
I wonder what I'd want then.

If I could have my wish at this VERY moment
it'd probably be to keep my hair
six pack abs
a cigar on the back porch
and a day off.

Because I have a liverwurst and cornedbeef sandwich to look forward to tomorrow.

If I had a wish for the very next day
it'd probably be
job
publish
bomb-shelter house
my puppy to live another 40 years

And an argument could be made
that I have enough random
crazy shit
to get at least one book of poems pushed.

I've really peppered the field after this much time.

...

This liverwurst and corned beef sandwich is gonna be really fucking good.

I want you to know that
more than anything else.

The liverwurst is average, but the corned beef is home made, and we've even got left over horseradish.