I miss jamie
I just really hope he gets put on probation.
He asked someone tonight if he got on probation if he could live with them
and they said yes. So if he gets out.. then... omg! He'll be living right down the street... or if they move, I'll be living with them.
Well more then likely.. I havent talked to my parents about it yet.
cuz J is not sure on if he' s getting out on probation or not.
But he cant go to his mom's house and live if he does.
So yeah.. I love him so much that will be so fucking cool.
Time will tell ... I think i should take faith in the lord or something cuz i really want this to work out forthe best. I want him here.. Not in prison.
It's bullshit... I can't live with out him.
Hes my everything. I really want me and him to have a have a life together and all that emo shit.
He's the only guy that i let truely get to my heart.. Since SRK.
He know's more of the real me then everyone else.. Even my family.
I didnt munipulate him to get what i want.. i have with a lot of other people.but he was.. [[still is]] Different.
I cant explain.. I don't understand it either.
But he treats me like gold.. He did and he still does his words are so loving and caring.. While he was out he showed me more then telling me.. but now he has to tell me and not show me cuz how the situation is.. But I dont care i know he loves me.. He proved that to me.. I was just blind.. I wanted to hear him say his love to me.. but he showed me .. I tried to show him by my immaturity came out some times.. And Im just grateful we are still talking.
Without his love i truely would die.. I couldnt make it...
Yes ive done things and i know ive hurt him but i dunno i guess the feeling of being wanted is.. nice.. especailly when hes not here to give me that.. Im an attention whore and im ashamed to admit that.
It sickens me to know ive hurt him and almost lost him completely...
Anyways i dunno why im writing this.
No body reads these blogs anyways
well they do.. being nosy fuckers and not comment..
lol
luvv always,
Broken juggalette.
