Red Queen of Broken Hearts's blog: "Tale of the broken heart"

if anyone does read these things I write (highly doubtful).. I'm just doing a little venting.. 

I'm so tired of men leading me to believe that I'm important to them this week.. and then next week or next month they are done...  I realize I'm not the most beautiful or most interesting woman in the world.. but that doesn't mean, however, that I don't have a lot to offer.. I have a lot of love, affection to give.. I accept people as they are, I don't expect them to change..I'm a woman of reasonable intelligence.. I have diverse interests.. I enjoy learning new things... regardless of all this tho it seems a man's interest in me wanes.. sometimes quickly.. I'm really not sure what's wrong with me and no one will tell me so I can't do anything about it.. 

Now with Valentines Day nearly upon us it makes me think (not always a good thing.. lol)... what is it about me that first attracts men then makes them walk or sometimes run away from me?.. sometimes they drop me quickly, harshly and I never hear from them again.. other times they do a slow fade from me.. a lot of the time they find someone else, someone more exciting I guess.. regardless of how they leave, leave they do.. 

So I sit here.. alone.. wondering.. what is wrong with me?.. not pretty enough?.. not exciting enough?.. not mysterious?.. what is it?

I'll probably never know.. and will, therefore, probably spend the rest of my life alone.. which is not all bad.. at least no one will be lying or cheating on me.. 

but still sometimes, thinking about all this, it makes the pieces of my broken heart ache with longing and loss...