I gave my heart to this guy and did not know the messure's of our love for each other. After four kids and the death of one I think why keep fighting when we have drifted so far apart. I know I love him he's my best friend but we have both so much changed. And I seek for that specail thing that was once there. When you have to paint on a fake smile to get threw your day cause your minds on another you know you need to do some soul searching. I have done nothing but cry myself to sleep knowing that I have to be the one to make the final decision on what I wanna do even if it's too late to make things right.
