your pain is the breakeing of the shell that encloses your understanding. it is the potion by witch the physition within you heals your sick self.Therefore , trust the physition and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility. "Khalil Gibran" Obi wan kenobi once said 'your eyes can deceive you , dont trust them.' it seems to be harder , distinguishing reality from the illusions people make for us , or the ones we make for ourselves. idont know, maby thats part of the plan, to make me think im crazy....its working.