PunkStarChik's blog: "Book Of Shadows"

Today I went out apartment shopping. My friend Kari came with me to keep me company. I first checked out the place where I'm at because I still like this place. She told me there is a opening by the time my lease ends but there is a waiting list. I told her I would like to be on that list. I would save some money on certain things if I just transferred places. So I hope I get that place.

I picked up Kari, bought us some lunch and looked around some places. Found a couple I could afford. Not the greatest places, but it's enough for me to get by. So I have two places that I have my eyes on, and hope I get one of them.

I come back home and saw that Rich..my ex..husband..whatever.. had used MY moving boxes that I got, the packing tape and bubble wrap. That pissed me off because I got them for myself, not for us...MYSELF. why the hell would I help pack his shit up? He's the one who told me I need to get my shit packed up and find a place when he hadn't done anything before. I was the one who went through tons of other boxes, reused them, donated shit and he did nothing and he thinks he can just use my stuff?

I didn't yell at him..I asked him why did he use my stuff and he said "well they were there and thought I could use them" I told him, not to use my stuff and to ask next time. He said "well i could always take my stuff out of the boxes and give them back" I told him, no..just keep them, just don't use my stuff or just ask. He said he would replace them. He said he would get me more tape and said there was still some left. But when I looked at it...there was just a small strip left..gee thanks.

I know it's just a little thing, but makes me real annoyed he did that..telling me what to do and use my shit. And another thing that's really annoying me is about the whole credit union shit about his car. I want my dad off that damn co signer thing...and I guess all the locations have closed down and they're in some place 2 hours from here.

Thats just so fucking stupid. Rich texted me saying he didn't get why we were looking for the place...well hello?!?! I been telling him that I wanted my dad off it because he really fucking sucks at paying his bill and I dont' want my dad to have bad credit because of him. There HAS to be another way to get my dad off that thing and not having to drive all the way down there. I just want him off it..that's all.

Rich said that he doesn't know anyone else that could cosign for him and he doesn't think he could afford refinancing it. So what the hell is gonna happen?? Maybe I should just take his car, like he wants me to, so he doesn't have to worry about his bill...then I trade that car in for something else or sell it. That just frustrats me. Either way..I'm gonna get my dad off that list...I don't want him there....dad doesn't want to be on it anymroe...and what's the point of my dad being on there still when we get our divorce? There's no reason..grrrr what the hell to do?

Right now, he took the car to be with his friends to play D&D, which is fine, because I went out to dinner with my mom and dad. But I'm stuck here lol.... I wished he hadn't used my boxes because I wanted to get more packing done.... I could always go in the shed and unpack those boxes and see what to get rid of but it's cold, dark and raining out.

I just can't wait to move out, get my dad off the co signer thing, me have a car again whenever I do..and just start my life all over again.