my past came back to bite me last night, I thought I had put it behind me. Didnt sleep for shit last night and someone Im crazy about doesnt wanna talk to me...... I wish i could fix this, knew what to say, what to do...... its been half a day and shes running around in my head drivin me nuts (in a good way) but still, I miss talking to her, I miss her telling me to shut up cuz i talk to much. ....... and now I wait..... and wait.... and wait..... for a sign, or just for a hello...... I want to make it right, I dunno how I can cuz its from my past, how to convince her im not the boy I was 10 years ago..... man i was such a player back then, I feel like shit now...... I know I should forgive myself and move on but for the time being, Im gonna keep feeling like crap.....
I guess if I dont hear from her I may have to move on but , this one is gonna be tough, I fell hard and fast for her, not something I wanted to do, but it still happened. If u are reading this I love ya babe, even though you are not ready to love me.
Im gonna go work on the pond for a bit and try to feel better. Probably wont though :(
