MFKN Raistlin's blog: "High Sorcery"

So I am sure that most people in this world are going to think that this is all bullshit along with Wicca, and Tarot. Go right ahead, because this is about one of the biggest curses I have known in this lifetime. Basically if you do not believe in it, then I do not care.

What do I mean by empathy? I mean that there are people in this life that are cursed to feel the emotions of others. I have personally had days where I went from a great happy mood to being totally depressed because of another person's emotions. Over the years I have learned to sort out what it my emotion and what belongs to others for the most part. For example, I am sure a few of you recall Shayne/Elf right? I remember being overcame one day by the most horrible sadness, and loneliness, and missing someone. I knew this was not me, and realized it was just my empathy. I wrote down the date and time, and that I thought it was him missing me. Of course he called the next day, and asked me if I felt him missing me the day before. We had not spoken in months at that time.

Well there are also times when I can project my emotions without meaning to do so. Side not if we are fighting, and I try to walk away, then let me because I know that I can project and amplify a fight. Without meaning to do so. Sadness is something I do bottle up actually, and from time to time, it will sneak out into another empath. Back in high school, there was a guy named Ronnie. He was my first crush, and he did not take it well when I told him I might be gay or bi. I wanted to cry, and wanted to just die. Then there was my fellow Pisces friend, Brian. I will never forget him just starting to cry, and asking me why he was crying. I also noticed that my pain started to evaporate.  I projected or he recieved my pain, and it expressed itself through him.

Well I work with this guy now that has claimed to be an empath. Well he came up to me tonight crying, and asking me if I was the reason he was feeling depressed and crying. Not that I would have ever shown it, or expressed, it but yes, I felt rather depressed today. Just like before my own pain started to evaporate and vanish from me. I spoke to him about it later in the night, and he said he never wanted to feel that sad again..ever.

empathy fucking sucks btw!!