i finally get what i want, to be shipped out again. that was before i met my best friend. i never thought a woman could make me feel so compelled to be a better man. i'm so damn scared to go now because i don't think she'll be here when i get back and that would really suck ass. i love it when we hang out and watch movies. she doesn't know it, but i never really pay attention to the movies because i'm too busy tracing the curves of her face with my eyes, just daydreaming. i guess it all comes down to this: i'm in love with my best friend, but she doesn't know it and now that i finally found her i don't wanna leave. i don't wanna give her the chance to meet someone better. is that too selfish? should i even tell her? i know she should know, but i don't wanna risk losing her friendship. any advice?