why is everyone so anti-everything they live there lifes disliking something or someone...a way of life in todays society poluted by the mainstream touched by a genre that has a certain appeal. like a punch drunk fighter fisting away at everything you think your against..."I'm anti this....I'm anti that" but what are you really? what form of mainstream media hit you the most? you are just another puppet in the genre game...classification is the name of the game..."I'm this I'm that" how about being everything...judgement free. Block out the masses and you shall see the matrix of what is real the fabic of what reality is really made of. yes given the media paints pretty pictures that you "relate" to but you're eyes aren't always gateways to the soul, they are glorified kalidescopes allowing bright lights to pass for brights ideas...if you want more just ask and I will share my views..
I find myself in a utter state of disbelieve that there can actually be people more permiscuious that I. yet at the same time this life seems to draw me closer closer to the inevittable truth that I am truely alone in this world. lol I realized this Halloween night. Silence is my shield...I watch in silence as bodies touch and emotions subside...and the pounding of flesh is a symphony of pleasure. I watch in silence as we are forward,straight to the point and finding something interesting about the person on top of you...or below you. where makin love becomes sex and sex becomes the simple "f" sound in fffflesh.
how in some weird and twisted way I liked it.the Biting, the punching, slapping and slaming into the floor...the insigificant pants and sighs and the bruising our own dirty little secret...how someone such as I...self-medicated, self-preserved, and tortured scared by the minial past of my childhood...a young man-boy trapped in a 23 yrold body which feels like 60. Incomplete and broken but oh how we find a hint of gold in each others souls.
