Chapter III
A Thought-less Thought:
Is a single thought alive? Does it think? Does it breathe? Does it have a soul? Can it be consciously aware of itself and its life as it zips by in a flash?
I've always wondered that quite a few times before. If a thought is alive and aware, can it also think and alter itself for some reason or another? (If it is though, I'd rather not know what that thought is really thinking!)
The reason I ask? Well, it’s simple enough. It would be nice to know how a thought comes into being. What makes that quiet voice in the back of your head all of the sudden speak up and whisper that phrase which just sits there like lead? But yet it slips down from the sub-conscious into the conscious mind and echoes and bounces through your mind like a sad imitation of a Super Bouncy Ball. Only this one has razor sharp claws and a tongue that fillet all within its reach. I know you all know that voice and the destruction it brings with it...
It's that voice that quietly keeps telling you, "Yep, it's true, You know that what (WHO) she's doing like the slut of your nightmarish, ex-girlfriend(s) from Hell!"
And all the while, your Frontal lobe and cerebellum and Heart scream out all at once, "You know she's so truly in Love with only You (Selfish?) And if she said 'No, I didn't do that, For Only You my Heart and Love's desires can only be DEVOTED to you, My Soul's One and Only True Love!” You would totally believe her, wouldn’t you?
I thought so, too...
It's maddening sometimes how thoughts are born into the Nexus of all the Energy of the mind. Speeding currents of the racing lights of passing thoughts and ideas on the highway of decisions justifying or rejecting those dealing with the reactor that makes up the turmoil of my soul. The ones born here only to cast doubt and uncertainty or to just flat out disagree with any pulse of thought that just happens to be within its sphere of influence, just because it CAN.
Or how about how sometimes a single thought gets a split personality, or just gets short-circuited by not seeing the oncoming Train Of Thought coming fast down the neural pathway, only to be derailed because of a notion of What is Really Morality? Reality?
So now, the thought that was just beginning to take shape is now lying mangled and twisted as to what its original purpose was. Now that thought is left to mutate (mutilate?) dividing itself into many, multiple (redundant?) personality ideas that all claim that they are Never, Never, EVER Fucking WRONG Goddamnit!
-I'm Sorry, I'm laughing inside, For Nothing, I'm only Laughing on the Inside.
Is it that Rogue Thought that says, "This just isn't working, maybe we to just give it up", and while at the same time justifying why we should just ride it out... "Go with it, Keep At It, Who knows, we might just make it right and make it finally work this time", only to find that we've done kicked this Dead Horse into something reminiscent of some Gory, Stinky type of Goo! Go figure... See Sorcery by T. Pratchett
-Biding my time until I'm strong enough to fight back, anyone want to tell me I'm FINE?
-Miss Construe left her mark like a handprint upon my Soul
-Listen to me Listen
"Watching a Lone Crow slowly circle where goodness will be found near at hand..."
Separate the Users from the Whores pray for true Separation. IF it were up to me, I'd free Charles Manson. Humanity is posturing in an imitation of Life. Violence abounds in Life and on Television as the media perpetuates the carnage of the world today. Just put a Brick through your TV Kuz we've gone on strike and we're boycotting Television. It's all so senseless and you are useless if you buy into those lies and the violence. To me, you don't exist in my world if you are like that. So don't bother harshing my mellow if you think that violence is a fun game to play.
THUD!
What the fuck was that?
Hey, that was just your False Reality crashing to the floor right in front of your face, Mother Fucker! Just stop with that Bullshit kuz it's making my brain hurt to stoop down to your level just for me to tell you I don't like to play those Reindeer Games anymore. I don't like nor want your negativity near me at all, Dumb-azz.
Figure it out, Smart-Azz!
To Watch Nothing, Too much Nothing, LIAR!
I just want to say Thank You for being so beautiful, okay? That's all I have to Say!
Impress me with your STOOPIDITY! Show me your true colors of Nighttime Shades of Darkness. Enabler is encouraging the perpetuation of the Dis-Ease and Stoopidity.
Too many people are way too self-absorbed to realize exactly what kind of harm they actually bring to other people in their surrounding area. They speak without thinking, and nine times out of ten; they don't realize how senseless their drivel really is.
I'm saying Thank You to all the FUCT (fucked) People for their thoughtless games as they fall through Life unknowingly dragging the innocent with them. They live a hollow existence on this plane, serving no purpose except as placeholders or just Wastes of Space. Is it so wrong to call them what they really, Truly are?
Is it any wonder that when asked about the last time they acknowledged something beautiful and thanked it just for being there, that they start stammering like bumbling idiots? They seem to lock up inside like a Monkey Wrench has been thrown right into the middle of the inner workings of their mind. You can probably even see smoke start to rise out of their ears if you look closely enough.
Why not let sleeping dogs lie and not wake up hate at all? Just stop the vicious cycle right where it is and use the existing momentum to start something that is peacefully Balanced and Content to exist and Thankful for its existence instead?
Let's all get together and just smoke a Bong and promote Goodness, people?
"Now I see the times they change,
Leaving doesn't seem so strange."
But what if all these sleeping souls are destined to never wake up again and we're just wasting our breath trying to explain it to them? Oh well, then they are not ready and leave them to their own devices. Eventually they'll figure it out... Maybe. What better way to teach an impatient person patience, then to make them wait?
FOR THE ALL!
The Day is here and we are here to stay the day. So kind and precious, don't take for granted, Life. It is short of here. Don't Forget the past for it is here if gone, don't forget...
What if all these inner ramblings are just put in our heads by some elaborate scheme of the Governments idea of Mind Control and we truly are just Batteries to feed the New Machine? Well?
Either way, let's just have fun while we are here and make it what we want of it. No Sense in wasting anything of what we are given, Right?
Right!
A Graphical interface with Life. Contoured to the forgotten pain that has been my life, the soul learns from all that has happened and it remembers from one life to the next. Thus is the Soul when you sleep, the soul is asleep and you must re-awaken yourself from within in order for the Soul to Remember. Thus develops the Godhead that is "I".
Prophet? Coincidence? I think NOT...
I cannot be your Hero anymore, nor do I want to. It's time you separate everything from yourself and learn on your own, because I cannot do it for you!
Seratonin Overdose! Way too happy for Your Own Good! Well-being is a joke, or is it Life? Forgotten at its own speed for Your Own Sake.
Inner Dialogues can be so amusing at times, kuz that’s when the Sub-Conscious bleeds through to Reality.
"I hear Voices in My Head..."
"Right-Cheya' Muther Fucker, Back Hand, Knuckle Draggin', Devil Flash, Eyeball Sucka...!"
It's nothing more than a communication breakdown in which the Babel must be lessened in able to Decipher Existence. But who am I to say I'm right either, because I am a Nothing in comparison to the whole scheme of things, or am I really something?
I'm just a Fucking Pothead that wants to run away. I hate my Dad for Leaving! I hate my mom for not being there! My Mom's a Tweeker; My Dad's a Fucking Psycho!
Do you wanna dance?
I don't wanna go to school; I'll just get straight F's again.
Fade away-Every day's the same, what's the use, getting nothing.
Gone, Disappear...
Thank you Butterflies, You're the only good things in my life/existence.
"Real Love is Meaningless"
"True Love is DIVINE!
I think that if People truly understood the true meaning of that Term, "Judge Not Lest Ye be Judged Yourself", the world would truly be a better place and a lot less violent. Not to mention, the whole, "Golden Rule" thing.
I'm Secure and Content with 'Who, What, Where' I am and who I am with. I look forward to sitting on my front porch with my Special someone... "Her, THE ONE".
