Icarus's blog: "Augurs, Martyrs, and Agnostics"

I think my mother's cooking
and star wars old republic

are making me lose the will to live

tonight we had

breadcrumbs and almonds on cod (the breadcrumbs slid off in some disgusting oatmealy slop, the fish had no salt on it)

vinegar and cream cabbage (which was apparently supposed to be a tart miracle whip cole slaw... which even what it was supposed to be was disgusting)

carrot and cheese casserole (I loathe casserole, I loathe cooked carrots, I loathe sprinkle cheese)

leftover steam-bag greenbeans (I hate steambag vegetables, I hate greenbeans)




I'm eating once a day again from a combination of issues
1. There's no food in the house. Oh there's tons of raisins, salted nuts, generic peanut butter, chips, pickles, lunchmeat, popcorn, cookies, chocolate...
y'know
shit that will kill you not sustain you


2. What food there is, is disgusting, or frozen solid with no intention of being consumed in the foreseaable future, for some reason.

I've come down for lunch everyday this week and asked myself why I got up.
I can either have

Steamed rice and eggs again

or I can go back upstairs, and wait for horrible dinner.


Last night

I had bagged salad
jar spaghetti sauce
and frozen chicken patties on generic noodles

Can I please
PLEASE cook now?

In the last month I cooked one roast
and it was a cut of meat I didn't want to work with, (big giant block of tough grass fed beef) and handicap ingredients, with handicap flavors ("oh I don't like garlic, or for my food to have flavor")

I ate it three times. It was the best thing I've had in recent memory. I almost cried when it was gone.

Proposed solutions:

"Well why don't you write what you want on the list"

"because you'll call me from the grocery store, in front of what I want you to buy, to tell me you're not going to pick it up"

"well why don't you go to the grocery store and buy it?"

"because I made $30 last month and spent $45 on utilities for a house I don't live in any more, and $60 driving to see your mother in law, also, who is going to watch the dog?"



Things are going very
very wrong
when I start craving black beans and rice (y'know ... that thing I ate for 2 years straight?)


I'm gonna take a nap
eating one time a day makes you angry and tired.