So today i went swimming twice. chilled by the pool with my roomates and some freinds. I heard this girl talking about this guy she i seein. and how he has been a "dickhead' and/or.. so i ask her " do you think that you feeling like this against him, and you knowing he's not here with you to make you feel good and make each other happy by being together is a positive way to be if you both really like each other?" Now i got silence for a few seconds, and then after that silence she walksaway and calls this guy and tlks to him for an hour. Now, i'm kind of curious as to what transpired, but it's nne of my business and im glad that im not in a relationship like that. Two people should enjoy being together. I myself wish i had someone to love again. to know that person, came to where you are at to see you is a remarkable feeling. and to be able to hold someone in front of all your homies and say, "this is mine". I guess in a way im trying to look for love. and another part of me doesnt want it, because im scared that i will never be able to be ME in any relationship cause o girl i've met, has ever like me for me! I feel like i have a lot of good qualities that a woman can appreciate. and if i can find that appreciation, I would be the happiest person.
There is a lot that goes into a relationship. Honesty, and openess are some of the key ingredients. And that includes telling someone that you feel you have to lie to hide who you are because of the others likes or dislikes.
So other than that today was pretty lame. woke up, took a shower, went swimming in the pooring rain (which was fun as hell), played catch with the football in the rain, heard the new Trivium Song, and now im chillin online listening to music about to crack open a brew!! Have a good day tomorrow everyone, and dont forget that smiles are fucking awsome!!!
Love, Dustin
