When you let someone shit on your feelings and waste your time. you really have no one to blame but yourself. it was a choice you made when you condoned the first shitty thing and only further allowed with the following shitty things. you cant be upset for any hurt feelings you have because you saw the dead end signs and kept going that direction. but you can shut everyone else out again. regroup. take some time to think about it and decide if you're ready for this same fucking trip later. you can't seem to take another trip down a different road so you might as well accept that it's gonna just keep happening until you fix it.