From July 2008
At present it seems that after an increase of medication things have evened out again. So, I am now on 250 mg AM and 250 mg PM - Lamactil.
This was following a blip after seeing the Neurologist on June 17.
I did start to have a hypo but stopped it by having something to eat. My hands were shaking as I tried to open the snack bar just like they did the last time I had one that I managed to stop.
There is a difference between the beginnings of a seizure and the beginning of a hypo. It is a visual thing mostly because everything looks blue just before a hypo and I feel unreal or sick or like I want to faint.
The start of a seizure is like a sharp jolt in the stomach which is like the second brain and it seems to have a huge surge of electricity - well that is what it feels like to me. It is similar to that feeling you experience when say you have forgotten your purse or even your front door keys. However the sensation is actually sharper and quicker than that feeling of doom or fear.
I still don't get that sensation any more, the feeling of fear in the pit of the stomach or the butterflies in the stomach, that is. So nothing really bothers me still.
This probably does not mean much but I have sold 14 books. I cannot imagine doing this without having the surgery because it has required a lot of confidence and a lot of organisation to get things into a state of *
Well, the only thing I still have trouble with is word recall which is annoying but to save stopping the thought flow I just put asterixes down and hope the word comes eventually. It usually does but sometimes I have to ask for help.
Certain noise frequencies irritate me more than is probably acceptable but this is due to noticing so much more and having to acclimatise to all that I did not notice before surgery. I have learned to think before speaking which has taken two years but due to speeding up I find typing is a problem at times due to transposing words. My neuro psychologist tells me that I am going too fast in mind for the body to react to. She told me to stop and slow down or leave it for a while and go back. I do type faster than ever now so this is probably another thing that needs re-learning.
Following my visit to see the psychologist my memory has not deteriorated but my attention span has decreased which could be down to have the seizures or stress. Because of this rather than having open appointments with her it was decided to make one for six months hence in case the seizures carry on and impair things. I am hoping to have reached the state of balance now though because I do not really wish to increase the medication but if it is needed then I will have to.
