Hi family I’m an addict name Carlton 58 days and moving
How does it feel when u get near 60 days clean and sober? Like the days before Grateful u got this far. 58 days isn’t easy 2 accomplish, just knowing I survived another day is certainly a blessin and a present welcomed.
This is the building method I have used 2 get 58 day; pray, go 2 meeting and didn’t pick up. O, can’t forget didn’t hang with a soul who didn’t have my best interest at heart. Of course there is going 2 b times when I think about one or the other, but after I think about what the hell happens afterwards scared the shit out me.
Me, hurt my Higher Power’s Feelings after he gave me yet another chance 2 prove I am one of his angels 2 use? I don’t think so. God gave me many soldiers with resources. He gave me permission 2 use them 2 help ME. They along with the literature are the tools of recovery. Believe me, if I couldn’t get 2 a meeting or to any of the tools, then God never let me down when I called upon him 4 mercy and guidance. Until then he would provide out of nowhere another addict, who was going 2 or we could form a meeting which was the help I needed 2 hold on.
I dare not let that information fall by the waist side, cuz that would b like questioning my Faith in him. If I have it then I had betta use it 2 the best of my ability at all times. I now understand the clichés “one addict helping another” is the best thing about this program. C “in order 2 keep what we have we must give it away “. One day we could b the one with our back up against the wall. And that wall ain’t moving so u best not Challenge “life on life’s terms”, cuz u will eventually LOSE!!! Ex. If 10 of us r hanging out and 9 of us r getting high or drunk and u don’t leave, don’t call on the Most High, keep it moving, and just decide u can handle it. I will b here whenever they gain enuff courage 2 come back or they get tired of being sick and tired yet again!
What I have is priceless. U can have what I have easily it is not religious, but spiritual with skies r the limit as far as rewards go. And it has nothing 2 do with material, cuz they can b destroyed, reprocessed, or stolen. When u got the information that is not only power but able 2 make u powerful, just believe a Triple H (WWF), Glock (Gun), or Pamela Anderson (Sexy, but freaky) can’t compared.
Feeling good now is an understandment. once I noticed what was at stake and it had nothing 2 do with money, but my life and God’s love, how in the hell could I deny God’s hand. When he offered it 2 me when I was in that hole and no else would reach out 2 me or was attempting 2 I can’t turn my back on him now. U bet I jumped up in God’s arms.
I finally got the opportunity 2 do what no one else know how 2 tell me, LEARN CARLTON. Until then I was able 2 get in touch with my spiritual side. This time in my life I finally got something no man can take from ME. Since I Surrendered and Accepted, I am now getting the necessary serenity & courage 2 change what I can and accept what I can’t change. Wisdom comes gradually 2 know the difference. First I started with my life and I love mine now, so u can bet I won’t fuck this chance up. I won’t b glad when these 60 days get here. I do know on day 60th I will b GLAD!!!
Thanks 4 letting me Share. I will keep coming Back!
