I am on my own
I have found no purpose in my life
I drink when I can to forget the time
Drugs are my friend allow me to snap in school
My grades when to hell
Like I probably will to
I have followed the line
Til I was about ten
I am 15 now
And know that my life is dead
I talk to my mom
She cries when she hears my pain
SHe does not try to see my life
Only her own in vain
My dad is a drunk
He is terrible to my mom
I she is so withdrawn
I will walk this plank
Magic roulette which will surely take my life
Or maybe I will hang myself to make sure it is done right
I can step off this cliff and there will be no ifs
I have found away to end my loneliness today
Then this man in red says blows your brains out so I can have yur soul again
Then comes this light in white
He looks at me and cries
What a sad soul he is
He looks at me and says I am sad
You walk alone and you dont know right
I died for you so you knew it was my time
But I turned to him and said no one shared jesus and no one took the time
He says it is not them who needs the time look in my eyes
I see a terrifying sight
It was dark and you could not see the end
THere was no mystery to what this lead to
He tells me to look deeper
I see a shadow of a woman
I cannot tell who this is
He said this young lady died when she commited suicide
She was distraught over sexual abuse
From the times your uncle walked in her room
She now sits in a place I cannot save her today
So I am here to tell you today is your day
Tears streaming down my face I knew it was my sis
The darkness she lives is cause of one choice she made
After I had 4 kids and a beautiful wife
It was time and the end of my life
At 85 he walks in the room
The prince of peace showed me out of my gloom
He asks if I was ready to go
It is now your time to see the big show
He saved me that day when I was 15
Today was a day of redemption for my sis and me
I am glad he showed up or else i would have been sad
He showed me I had years to live
I would give anything if my sis would have lived to see a full life
I did and now I dedicate that life to my beautiful wife