Call my messages
Cuz your phone is dead
Just to hear ur voice
and let it dance around in my head
So many dreams
So much love between us
No more fears, no more tears
We can and will withstand thru the years
The headgames others play with each others minds
We only use on each others bodies
Nothing left to prove
Knowing our love is one of a kind
Our way to each other is all we need to find......
Uneasiness, tears, fear, uncertainty
Those are all the familiar emotions
Churning inside of me
All of them frighting for the chance to raise their head
To take a glance
I shove them down
each in turn
as i try not to let them return
They threaten to overwhelm me
To burn and drown me
The tears i cannot let fall
answer thier masters sweet call
and begin to fall anyway no matter
what i say
They always seem to surface and bring back the emotions
to wreak havoc in my heart while they play
Time clicks by
Each second a minute
Each minute seeming like an hour
Slowly i feel myself losing control and power
All i want now is to escape
From insecurities, their grip, the worry
Oh how i wish your call would come in a hurry
Just as i think that the only release is the sweet surrender of sleep
If i can only escape into the good sweet dreams
and not the nightmares that haunt me
the phone rings
my heart pounds
its YOU
All of my insecurties
melt away once more
as if they
never were.
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's
real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can
Ok well one thing I have come to the conclusion about is that insecurity can be a real kicker. Even when a person doesnt have a reason to feel insecure they can feel that way. The other conclusion I have come to is that feeling stinks.
So, I have decided that no matter what I am going to stop feeling insecure about so many things and rest in the fact that I am me and I cant be anymore than that and that is enough....or at least it should be right????
Ok so I know Im not perfect...lol...but who is huh? It is good to have goals tho. I am so happy for the real people I have met and for the real people that I have filled my life with. That is what I strive to be most is REAL. All me, no pretending, no faking, no lying, just ME. All of u who think that the regular me is great, lots of love goes out to u.You are all great. And I appreciate all of you.
I love like there is no tomorrow, am fiercly loyal and protective, and always have a listening ear and soft shoulder. I am too honest for my own good and appreciate and enjoy the small things.
Thank u to all of you "real" people in my life at this moment.
Well I am a wayward angel
I don't suffer I don't cry
And late in the night your sleeping
I come to hover by your side
So close your weary weathered eyes
These tears are just a faint disguise
Cause I am a wayward angel
I don't suffer, I don't cry
Cold in the heart of winter
Make your shiver make you blue
I'm stay close by your window
Give your blankets to hold on to
So sleep my baby for a while
You'll wake with the light of a mothers smile
Cause I am a wayward angel
I don't suffer I don't cry
I am a wayward angel
I feel no sorrow
I'll always carry you home
I'll bring salvation
Before tomorrow
I'll be wherever you go
Break like a first time heartache
Leaves you weaker leaves you tears
Hold my hand much tighter
I will walk you through these years
So close your weary weathered eyes
You'll wake with the light of a mothers smile
Cause I am a wayward angel
I don't suffer I don't cry
Tangled thought running around in my head
Looking for someway they could just rest instead
Signs pointed the way to go
My heart said yes but something still said no
Finally, realizing there was no doubt
My heart won out
Closing the door on past regrets
Moving on to the haven't yets
All there is now is time to being anew
And the one I found I want to do that with is you.
My heart, My soul
The one that makes me whole
Never giving up, Never letting go
Going to do everything I can to let it show
To make sure that you know
Always will you be
Forever, a part of me.
so much time wasted so much time gone
now that fate has once again come and gone
taking all my pride and knocking down my spirit
if i screamed would anyone hear it?
life is full of choices some good and some bad
but what if a choice was something we never had
no one chooses to lose those that mean so much
or to have their heart taken away by someone who
only wants to mess it up
fate is that one thing that makes our choices we make
a good or great thing or one huge big mistake
i hope and pray that fate will be kind
because this mind and heart are far from blind
looking and searching hoping for the day
things will look brighter and for a love that wont go away
knowing it is out there if only the eyes of my soul can see
somewhere someone is waiting just for me
Its been a little while but i have found something again wchich makes me smile everytime i think of it. I like that...its been too long on the roller coaster or life and i would like to finally be on the straightaway coasting for a while just enjoying the ride instead of having to leap tall buildings in a single bound. Makes sense right?? *hmm there is that smile again....:)* ty for the smiles and the the confrimation...i am worth what i thought i was...:)
all smiley....Fallen Angel
Have a good week
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