Big ol teddybear's blog: "Me"

I have always relied on myself and for a long time I thought that's the only person I can rely on. I was wrong, relying on only myself only makes me lonely. I had a woman who would have given me everything of herself and I was too stupid to appreciate it and realize how special and wonderful that is. Well I've been on the other side and I know how it feels to give your all and not have it appreciated. If given the opportunity, I would give all of myself and with a grin from ear to ear and honestly a couple of tears falling from my eyes I'd accept her all. I don't want to sound opportunistic or be a jerk but to have someone love me so much as to give their all to me, that'd be a treasure that would be priceless to me.

Simple and short I'm simply waiting and hoping that my miricle comes and I get to be the luckiest man alive. I'll wait as long as I have to and I know given my miricle, I'll make her happier than she's ever been. At least I will try every day to.

Before you ask no I'm not talking physical injury. I do far worse, i hurt myself emotionally. When it comes to love, I have a knack for doing the wrong thing. I found a woman who loved and cared for me and I let her go. Then I found another woman who wanted to use me and I stayed with her until I was all used up. I've told my desire to go back in time, but sadly I can't. All I can do is try to find another woman who will give me the love I once had or get struck by a bolt of luck and get that second chance.