misfit's blog: "le crap"

being a pack rat

i used to love doing weights (back when i was a teen for over 5 years)...so i got these "pec" muscles that annoy the fuck outta me.  i would have thought once i became a fatty, they would have gone away...but in some pictures of mine on here i can see it and it drives me crazy.  maybe that is why i cant do ball boobs, or neck boobs :s

 the overused wordss on fubar of "drama" "hater" "dollface" "doll"

my hair

this craving for chese

this craving for tums (maybe i need more chalk in my diet)

rumours

your face

finding a diary of mine hidden away and am scared to read it...cuz i can imagine what is in it

what do you hate?

chicky (?) comes by my page

no big deal at the rate...but i always think the one rates are from alt accounts, so i send a mail (dont want to give points, but want to get my point across).  hard to read as i answered above and she(?) answered below, i numbered them so maybe it will be easy to follow

whatever! it made me giggle! shuddup and get cubby to fupony me

i was going to post a blog about how i was gonna open up some and start making friend requests (and i was gonna post a blog so there werent heartattacks when i accepted or friends seeing me making friends in the bartab)

but i am conflicted..now

i cant handle begging status's (and yes...i do think of "lets trade fubucks for bling" begging or close enough to it)

it seems that this will be the future of fubar

transactions/offers/begging/bargaining

what is soooooooooooooooooooooooo great about levelling? what do you get?

i am so tired...so very tired....i wish we could get refunds on bling credits purchased before....i might just blast myself crazy to get rid of them

maybe i will only make new friends with level 20 and lower

YOU DECIDE!!!!11!!!!!!

she was a member before (deleted or got deleted..her old salutes had the same look to them - body wise)

around 7am this morning....YES 7 A FREAKING M IN THE MORNING (like there is an a.m in the evening?)

i was awoken...awaken...i awoke to...

CONSTRUCTION!!! it has been going on in this area for a year or so (making it prettier for the hookers and the dealers i guess)...but none as close as my block...3 houses away.  i can look out the window and see all their roadwork vehicles

so...7am ish...i hear BANG BANG BANG over and over.  they are busting up the sidewalks...with a tool that is meant for breaking up concrete? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO but one of those things that have the scoop in the front.  :/  it literally shook my bed.  now i can imagine (very faintly) what an earthquake feels like

i am very tired

/whine

(probably not the last time i whine)

I WANT! I NEED!!!!!!

I WANT! I NEED!!!!!

WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT

NEED NEED NEED NEED NEED

is it just me? or does there seem to be more victims on here?

the only ones who seem to do ANYTHING wrong are the bouncers or admin

funny too...the people who i see blowing smoke up asses, talk about fucking sheep

each time something like this bullshit happens, it reinforces why i didnt accept or friend request most of the mummers (new and old)

take responsiblity for the shit you shit and stop pointing fingers you big fucking victim

as some of you know...my sister died 4 years ago june 18th

that year...it was the day before fathers day....for the first 2 years after, fathers day commercials would set me off.   i would become an emotional rollercoaster (once i stopped being one 24/7 from it)

she was terminal for a year and a half and it was not an easy time (some close to me know the details)

last year i decided to do something to distract me (once the fathers day commercials started)....i went for spotlight.  low and behold with a huge surprise to me...i was able to bid on it within 24 hours (people were that generous and it blew me away).  i spent a week and half - 2 weeks making things to thank the people who showed me kindess

there was one person...who marred it...who was a complete ass clown (IMO of course)

well...it seemed i was under the impression we would have no contact with each other (no drama...asked by a mutual friend)

well...this person...who was a blight on my distraction has resurfaced (even to rate me) ...... why? why in june? it is like one more reminder of what is coming up

is he evilly sinister and planned this? he knows i dislike him...why do this

it has upset me...i cant help it that i am not perfect like most who comment mumms and blogs about not caring about anything

i know what is coming up....i dont know why or how he has this timing...but i dont like it at all :(

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i am bored

tell me something

i just looked at my friend requests (yes occasionally i will look at the top few for shits and giggles, no this isnt a blog for you to bitch about what a nazi twat i am for not accepting 200000 people on my list including you)

i seen this one...it made me almost choke!

"2009-05-26 11:46:16hello... is your submissive behaviour as good as your outer appearance?!"

do i look....subby?  i am sure when i speak all the thoughts of dominating me goes out the window...but really! :p