Outlaw Knight's blog: "Just some of my poetry"

Another one written over ten years ago

Where Are You Tonight

I stand on the porch

Looking toward the sky

Knowing you're out there

Somewhere in the night

I wonder who you are

And what your name is

Then I close my eyes

And dream of our first kiss

Where are you tonight

Are you thinking of me

Wishing upon a star

For the day we meet

Will there come a day

When your eyes meet mine

And I no longer ask

Where are you tonight

I try to imagine

The color of your hair

Or how you might look 

In the cool night air

Will we ever meet

Or will you just pass by

God I just wonder

Where are you tonight

And then I wonder

If you're doing the same

Standing and wishing

For your soulmate

And I kneel to pray

That you're not a dream

That one day soon

God will send you to me

I wrote this over 10 years ago

Daddy's Girl

In the darkness of a room

A little girl hides in the corner

As the tears roll down her face

The pain and fear is upon her

The pain of her daddy's hand

And the fear of another day

Because she knows come tomorrow

Everything will be the same

Where does a little girl run to

Where does she hide

When the man that says "I love you"

Is the devil in her eyes

And who does she turn to 

In the darkness of the night

Where does a little girl run to

Where does she hide

And now her eyes are dry

She has cried all she can

But the pain still remains

And the fear of a man

A man that says "I love you"

And that she is daddy's girl

And one that has destroyed

Everything in her world

And when the yelling stops

She puts her hands on her face

And drifts off to sleep

To dream of a safer place

Fake smiles and empty promises

Meaningless books on a shelf

Silent screams from deep within

Rescue me, I cannot rescue myself

Broken dreams and shattered memories

A life of tattered and broken remains

Arms outstretched in desperation

Searching for hope without pain

Endless nights of painful thoughts

Abounding ever more so clearly

Nothing seems to ease the flood

Of desolate and lonely screams

Can anyone hear my silent whispers

Screaming out from deep within

Or is the world full of deaf ears

Unwilling to be silent and listen

The fake smiles and empty promises

Drown me in my own nightmares

Uncertain intents and purposes

A world filled with much despair

Can you hear me over the crowd

Or is the world filled with deafness

Here I stand amongst you all

The fake smiles and empty promises

Screams of silence go unheard

Nothing is as it seems anymore

I need someone to hear my cries

Without judgment that’s unsure

Standing before my broken life

Can you reach out and pull me in

Without a fake smile or empty promise

That is where true hearing will begin

Written by Timothy Sweezy

Trapped inside my own mind

Twisted and turning thoughts

Nothing makes sense anymore

The world comes at a cost

The voices screaming so loud

But none can ever agree

What choices do I need to make

To regain a little bit of sanity

Pressure builds and overflows

People say that it is nothing

They look from the outside

And think that they can know me

But the pain is inside my head

And it will not let me go

The bindings of a misery

That confine my darkening soul

Twisting, turning, never letting go

The pains and miseries that are me

The world smiles and says ok

But my chains are those unseen

Twisting, turning, never letting go

Emotions from deep within

These shackles that bind my mind

The darkness has become my friend

This is my sanctuary of insanity

In the depths of my crumbling mind

Come walk if you dare with me

Do not be afraid of what you find

I stand on the edge about to fall

Into the abyss of nothingness

It’s only the precipice of my mind

Can you handle the blackness

Written by Timothy Sweezy

Into the crevices of my mind you creep

Reminding me of the pain you bring

Delusional dreams are all that remain

Visions dancing amidst the flames

Intoxicating images fill my eyes

Unleashing an unrelenting desire

Drunken desires that now abound

Memories of you the only sound

Beneath the surface of reality

Drowning in thoughts of misery

Existence is futile in my mind

Pervading memories are all I find

Tantalizing touches of evil intent

Blazing infernos that never relent

Escaping the thoughts to no avail

Trapping me in a labyrinth of hell

Then You Walked in My Life


Before I ever met you
I was caught in a storm
The lightening had hit
And my heart had been burned
The rain seemed to keep falling
My breath had become shallow
I was beginning to drown
In my pain and my sorrow

Life can be cruel at times
Dealing you the devil’s hand
Things can become crazy
While you sink in the sand
Sleep becomes a distant thought
As the night becomes your friend
Then in the midst of it all
Somebody comes walking in

Then you walked in my life
The thunder began to cease
The rain began to subside
And I could finally breath
Before you the storm raged
Darkness outshined the light
I was just about to give up
Then you walked in my life

My world is still undone
And I am still spinning
But since you walked in
At least I am healing
You may never look at me
Through the eyes I desire
But just being who you are
Has calmed the raging fire

My Labyrinth of Confusion

Deep inside the workings of my mind
Lies a confusion that I cannot discern
Is it my own desires that are burning
What is it I am suppose to learn

I struggle with not knowing the answer
Battling rages in the depths of my soul
Do I follow what I feel to be true
Or do I simply let it all go

My labyrinth of confusion is mighty
Not knowing in which direction to go
With no clear choice deep within me
Which path should I take and follow

My labyrinth of confusion is tiring
An unrelenting war of decisions
Mind, body and soul are so weary
Do I continue, or just give in

Each day is more of a struggle
Trying to make it all make sense
Why is it so hard to just listen
Knowing where the truth begins

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If Only for a Moment

Days go by slowly

Since you’re not here

I still pick up the phone

Hoping that you are there

Silence cuts through the night

As the phone falls down

Lonely miles between us

Thoughts of you abound

Dreams of holding you

Run through my mind

Longing for your touch

Wanting you to be mine

I reach out in darkness

Hoping to feel your face

But nothing is there

Except an empty space

If only for a moment

I could hold you

Feel you next to me

And it all be true

If only for a moment

Sands of time ceased

As I pull you close

And it not be a dream

Your voice comes to me

In the darkness of night

Shadows fill the room

Your image fills my eyes

I long for a day

Miles will disappear

Till then I’ll keep dreaming

Of a day you are here