Hallway Hussie's blog: "Dont Know"

You opened up my heart..... You opened my heart and sung me a song. You grabbed me by my heart, and put it where it belonged. You opened a book and read me a story. You opened my mind and showed me anything can happen if given time. Moments that we have shared, the things we have done, the love we have experienced is simply the best book I ever had read to me. The song you sang to me was the most beautiful one I belive I've ever heard. One day at a time ......... Chapters has to be written, Hearts has to mend......Because I know OUR love will never end.....

One Day.... One day I will be happy and be able to look in the mirror and see all that you see. One day I will fall in love with that person , instead of giving her a hard time. One day I'll look for words that doesn't rhyme One day I'll be myself for what I am, and not what I want it to be. One day when I become me.

I was a bitch once then I became more. Now I look ouside , seeing who is holding the door. the door is held by hands that rocks my heart. Hands so strong and was once so loving. Whatever happened to them days. When all I wanted to do was stare at you in a gaze. I woke up with more bruises today. Got them somehow, in the worst of way. all I remember is seeing the wall. Not knowing how I got there is the greatest fear of all. Please dont hit me no more. Just leave and shut the door. I am a woman that is suppose to be loved. Not hit, or punched, or even sized up with a glove. I got help today and am going to turn my life around. I am going to make it without making a sound. I am stronger than I use to be. I will make it WHY? Because I'm Me!

Chyld of darkness Chyld of nyte I come to you no matter the lyte. I find myself searching for things I can not find. Looking for things that are no longer there. Emptyness sets in and I find that not fare I hunger for the imortality of the nyte. Searching wanting everything just ryte. The energy drips down the ceiling and into my veins. I am what you made me , that's all that remains. I feel the blood as it runs down my face so quietly , with hardly a trace. Running my fingers threw it, careful not to miss a drop. ............ Yelling I dont ever want this to stop!!!!!!! Dazed and confussed for what once was........ I am even stronger than before. I am knocking at your door , wont you invite me in. Show me how to make this stop and where to begin. I was once a wytch , and thrived on everyones fear. Now I am more., and I love it so dear. Threefold they always say..... To me its come what may.....

I am the seed of the apple that can never grow I am the soil on the earth that is so dirty it can never show. I am the sun that shines only threw a pane of glass. I am the four winds that blows on those cold damp days . I am the greed in your heart, when you know others are in need. I am the hunger in your stomach ,you need to be fed. I am the one your mom warned you about somewhere in your head. I am the guilty plee on an innocent face, loving that person without a trace. I am me for all eternity~ What am I you ask ? I am your conscience ~~~!!!! Mystical 10/23/07

Evil is stiring I feel it all around. The shadows are all on the ground. I am waiting for nightfall to release my energy. Brewing up a brew as I type. To show all I meant in the moment of my hype. Minutes before I must prepare. Revenge is mine and I do as I dare. Oh I feel it all around, as the storm clouds slowly moves in. Its time my friend...... I know now how it must end....

Thank you for loving me and showing me you care. Thank you for letting me into your life, and for always being there. Thank you for the I love you's first thing in the morning. Loving you was easy..... Forever came without warning. The touches you give me throughout the day. The remarkable smile, as I open my eyes. Engulfed with so much love in my heart for you. Now I know where my heart resides. A warm breeze blew me threw the skies to your home. My heart kept me there, because my love knew peace at last. A final link to a chain that had been broken so many times in the past. Now I know why poets rhyme. I know why songs sing I know why love is so real. I'm telling you this because its how I feel. Written by me 1/7/08

Crimson and brimstonecome to me I am in need..,and need to be set free. I"m locked away in my head and heart. I know not where to start. I"m so weak , and full of grief. Memories that fills my head. I want him to suffer I want him dead. I want him to feel all that I"ve been threw in my life. I want him to know , with a knife. I've killed him 1,000 times in my head. I"ve even wished him dead. I ploted revenge at the age of 7. I prayed to god up in heaven. I've searched high I've searched low. I want him to reap what he has sown. I'm a bitch child and no-one ever knew. I kept my face painted well. Deep on the inside is where my body went threw hell. The ones that know now wants to help. Yet, I know this is a battle that I must face alone. Brimstone and ashes I call upon thee. Slash his tongue, let him taste the sulfer so sweet. Let him know the pain I felt times two. Dark clouds and lighting hear my plee. Now go away go away and find he. feel the wrath and let the pain consume you and take you in. For loving me was your worst of sins. Many a nights I've dreamt of this and how I would see it threw. Soon it shall come true. -Mystical

Darkness, when I've learned to roam. The place that I call home. Something magickal about the night. Not as blinding as the light. I searched for answers and found you there. Trying to focus instead of a blank stare. Haunting memories of days gone past. Amazing how you zapped my memory so fast. I felt my very soul bleed. I know now you are all that I will ever need. You sucked my blood down as I quinched your thirst. I know that love does not have to be a curse. I seen my past flast before my eyes. But true beauty lies on the other side. Thanks for showing me the darkness. And for being my light. For tonight's the night~ ~Mystical~ 3/25/07

I belive in love !@ first sight I belive love has wings and takes flight I belive our heart has many strengths. I belive we love in many lengths My heart knew love , the minute you walked in the door. My heart flew and touched your heart . different nothing like before. My heart knew you were my destiny I came into your life when you needed a friend. You came into mine to show me ,how to love without an end. Inseperable we become. Sharing our laughter with the sun. Written by me.... Mysti